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Current affairs in my life.
Jul. 11th, 2009 09:31 pmSo, i've been dreaming about an ex lately, quite annoying. I thought i was over him but in my dreams i miss him badly and feel the need to contact him, and then i wake up still missing him and sometimes shedding some tears along with it.
The whole situation between us was just weird and it ended with a not so proper closure, he just left somewhere to a different country, telling people he would move there but telling me he would come back. So i prepared for both situations, sadly he moved there and never made contact with me after that. Kinda fucked up but i prepared for it, so i just moved on, it was hard the first two weeks but after that it became almost like a dream, sometimes the whole relationship just feels like a dream but i still have a bottle of wine and a ring to remind me that it wasn't a dream. It was just a great mindfuck.
Apperently my subconsience can't have peace with it and it suck because i'd just rather forget about and move on, i've been brainwashed already. Tricky, maybe i should contact him? but i dont want to be desperate, he might think i still like him, he must think i'll be clingy by doing that, but i dont want that. i dont need that and i dont need people like him in my life.
This phase will pass and if not, then it's just my problem.
My life isn't crappy at all, eventho shit still happens i've been a more positive and honest person and doing what i love to do. Basically i love my current life.
My sister and i have decided to take a trip again, and we're going to Malta! :D
In about two weeks we´ll be flying to the little island under Italy and i cant wait!
Another friend of ours is coming along and we went together on a trip before, to England, and damn that trip was movie like haha so i know malta will be great!
My sis and i already made some plans to do there, here´s a short list for the 8 days we´ll be spending there:
The whole situation between us was just weird and it ended with a not so proper closure, he just left somewhere to a different country, telling people he would move there but telling me he would come back. So i prepared for both situations, sadly he moved there and never made contact with me after that. Kinda fucked up but i prepared for it, so i just moved on, it was hard the first two weeks but after that it became almost like a dream, sometimes the whole relationship just feels like a dream but i still have a bottle of wine and a ring to remind me that it wasn't a dream. It was just a great mindfuck.
Apperently my subconsience can't have peace with it and it suck because i'd just rather forget about and move on, i've been brainwashed already. Tricky, maybe i should contact him? but i dont want to be desperate, he might think i still like him, he must think i'll be clingy by doing that, but i dont want that. i dont need that and i dont need people like him in my life.
This phase will pass and if not, then it's just my problem.
My life isn't crappy at all, eventho shit still happens i've been a more positive and honest person and doing what i love to do. Basically i love my current life.
My sister and i have decided to take a trip again, and we're going to Malta! :D
In about two weeks we´ll be flying to the little island under Italy and i cant wait!
Another friend of ours is coming along and we went together on a trip before, to England, and damn that trip was movie like haha so i know malta will be great!
My sis and i already made some plans to do there, here´s a short list for the 8 days we´ll be spending there:
- Explore the island and it´s clubs.
- Visit the Etna which is a volcano.
- Spend a day or two in beautiful Sicilia.
- Visit the Blue Lagoon probably on a boat.
- Shop and visit cultural places.
- Swimming with Dolphins!
- Taking a hell lot of pictures and drink many cocktails while eating the italian cuisine!
